Hello world!!
It’s a pleasure to come back on writing in my blog! I’m about to continue the
last post about Kyuhyun and Super Junior. But this time I’d like to take things
up about Kyuhyun-oppa^^. Maybe if you or my close friends are thinking that I’m
such a freak on addicting Kyuhyun, you’ll find out the cause why I love him.
It will be
started from the first time I became addicted on him. To be honest, I didn’t
put any attention on Super Junior before. I did even recognize them as a flower
boy group which has no skill at all and I was thought that they were fool. It
was November 2011 when I watched Super Junior’s Mr. Simple music video. I
didn’t know why but my sister and I were attracted and we kept replaying the
MV. The one who caught my attention from the beginning was Kyuhyun-oppa. I felt
a big interest on him and then I became so curious about him. I searched for
his bio, things he likes, things he hates, his habit, his friends and family,
and many more. As time goes by, my feelin’ went deeper and bigger. Until this
second, I’m officially a SPARKYU(a fan club of Kyuhyun), or maybe more than a
Sparkyu…
But
thing I didn’t wise up is my feelin’ grew up further and further. I poured
plenty of love to Kyuhyun. Every time I read his timeline on twitter, or
whenever I follow his activities, or when I look at his pictures, or when I
listen to his voice, those were my biggest happiness.
I was rather confused
and desperate since things were not going as my way and I’ve been dumped out by
someone I loved. I was passed most of nights by cryin’ on. I didn’t know how,
but he has woke me up from the darkness and he made me realize that I’ve been
spending my time and my energy. He made me learn up that I shouldn’t have done
that such thing. I must not hurt myself for a guy who doesn’t indeed in love
with me. A bad guy like that is not proper to be loved. He was my savior who
has been sent by God for me. Days were becoming so bright when I wasn’t
involved in relationship with any guy and I putted concentration every single
lesson in school. I refused any attention from those guys to prevent myself of
being hurt again. My friends asked me, “don’t you want to have a boyfriend?”,
“I can acquaint you to my male friend”, or “Come on, he’s a good person, he’s
unlike your ex!”. Then I just smiled and said, ”Do you can insure that he won’t
hurt me? Moreover, I already have someone to be loved…”. The only man I can
trust is him. The only man who unconsciously has beatified me and rescued me
from sickness is him. The only man who can make smile and laugh without doing
anything is him.
He’s the one who
always able to calms me down when I feel mad and sad. Just by memorizing him, all the rage will go away. I know, I’ve been selfish, but that’s a truth that
he relief all the pain I had. I do think that he’s the only one who understands
me the best and he never makes me feelin’ down. There’s a kind of feelin’ I
can’t explain. I mean, I’m TOTALLY unable to tell you guys. It’s the first time
I find this kinda feelin’. However I’m definitely sure and believe my feelin’
to him. I trust him. He’s my biggest power in life.
I know that he’s a
superstar, but I never treat him like that. I treat him as an ordinary human. I
love him as Cho Kyuhyun who has weakness and benefit inside him, who tends to
be evil with his friends, could be warm and kind-hearted somehow. My sight
towards him is not as a worship, but a truthful love. I do love him as a girl
to a man. Not as a fan to an idol. Since I’m not able to give any explanation
of my feelin’, I think there’s a song which figure out (a bit of) my exploding feelin’
towards Cho Kyuhyun.
SHE – Elvis Costello
He
May be the
face I can’t forget
The trace of
pleasure or regret
May be my
treasure or the price I have to pay
He
May be the
song that summer sings
May be the
chill that autumn brings
May be a
hundred different things
Within the
measure of a day
He
May be the
beauty or the beast
May be the
famine or the feast
May turn each
day into a heaven or a hell
He may be the
mirror of my dreams
The smile
reflected in a stream
He may not be
what he may seem
Inside his
shell
He
Who always
seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes
can be so private and so proud
No one’s allowed
to see them when they cry
He
May be the
love that cannot hope to last
May come to
me from shadows of the past
That I’ll
remember till the day I die
He
May be the
reason I survive
The why and
wherefore I’m alive
The one I’ll
care for through the rough in ready years
Me
I’ll take his
laughter and his tears
And make them
all my souvenirs
For where he
goes I’ve got to be
The meaning
of my life is
He
He, oh he
Perhaps
he’s the one I can’t and won’t forget ‘til the rest of my life. Maybe he’s the
reason I live and he’s the meaning of my whole life. A very truthful and simple
song, isn’t it?
I wish that God
will always protect him, keep him smiling even in the hardest moment, and give
him a happiness and health along his life. I also wish that he could reach his
dream to be a singer and may he always does his best. I wish all the best things
for you, Cho Kyu Hyun-oppa. I believe that all SPARKYU would have the same pray
as me J
Some of you
might be thinking that I’ve done crazy and non-sense thing. I just want to
share the real thing inside my mind and heart.. It’s all your right to judge
me, but, hey, that’s the truest fact! I’m also telling you that if you hate
something extravagantly, you might be like it copiously It’s a big pleasure to
tell you guys about my thoughts. I’ll be back soon with another story of me ;)
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